what are you passion about...

We all know by now, I am unemployed with lots of time to sit around and think. According to my twentysomething book, that is a good thing, to take time for yourself, to really get to know yourself and what you want out of life. Not gonna lie it's hard and it kind of sucks, I just want to be working around the clock and not focus on myself. But in reality, that won't make me happy, living out someone else's dream, the way I see it life is too short to not live out your passion. (something about watching the Bachelor makes me want to live passionately, find a career I am passionate about, find a person I am passionate about, have a life I am passionate about, I'm twentysomething and I want it all) The problem is I haven't quite figured out what I am passionate about doing...there's no doubt two of my passions are art and traveling. I want to work hard around the clock so I can take a two week vacation somewhere I have never been before. I want to have art in my daily life, but what aspect of it...art teacher, interior designer, art buyer, art curator. I have secretly been regretting giving up on going to school for interior design, I think there would have been a lot more I could have done with it than what I had originally thought. I had an unfortunate realization last night that I went to college for an absolutely worthless major. Studio Art, with no minor is worthless, and even worse is my concentration was in photography, b&w in the darkroom. We are in 2009, darkrooms are pretty much extinct. Maybe my passion could be teaching the lost art of the magic of a darkroom...
Upon my many debates to be an art teacher or not, I have found I am not inspired by cold schools, drab colors, cold tile floors, a lack of sunshine and fresh air, so I thought it would be fun to get an artist grant to feng shui schools, well Kleinman enlightened me that there is a program in NYC, Publicolor. It sounds amazing, granted NYC is expensive...and it can eat a person alive, however they are only hiring for Saturdays.
I think I would love to do something like that.
I guess this week I have been questioning the whole move back down south. Am I passionate about MM, and Chas. Do I want to spend another year of my life focusing my energy there? Or do I find a whatever job here, so I can save up money and travel, to Europe, to San Fran, Seattle, Portland, Vancouver, Chicago...etc etc etc And maybe along with way I will find my passion. Some many questions, so little time, so very few answers...