Charleston did greet me with sunny days and perfect 60 degrees weather. I've been a little shady, slightly avoiding the restaurant. Apparently there is a lot of talk about me, and the plans they have for me, which of course scares me. I have serious commitment issues. I want to be a free spirit and come and go as I please, but my rooted bills beg to differ with my head in the clouds. Pizza is not my passion, but it is a good job, it has room for growth if I desire...I do have this strange love with the company...
it's hard to grow up and have your dreams crash into reality...I can't seem to merge the two. I've been thinking about Providence lately, I would move back to that city, but the question remains do I want to commit myself to Chas, for a year. Which in the big picture is not long, but for a 25yr old unsettled college grad, it seems like a life-time. I'm just not sure I want to stay here but I feel like I am already in too deep so maybe I should just go with it. And then there is the boy in Myrtle. I really think I ran away up north and left some baggage down here, that I am not ready to deal with. Well I am going to finish my iced coffee at City Lights. (I did miss this place) And I am going to put on my grown-up pants and head to Mellow. Not sure where my head is but I can't keep avoiding it. It's strange the two managers pushing me to be on the schedule are the two who are planning on leaving/cutting back... I am a little nervous they may just put me on it, which would be the typical not having to make a decision,decision.
stay tuned to the unstable mess that is my life. Will I stay or will I flee...
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